Saturday, January 15, 2011

Life is a Dream!


I believed in this life and all those that will follow when this one is gone. I have lived many times over and over again, seeing each past life in the dreams of the now. We learn things about ourselves that we either come to love or hate. Many of these self-revelations are constructed from caring hearts or the woes of the defeated.

Life is odd and its as if we're on a never-ending journey to no where. This realization can be painful and even demoralizing if not put into perspective. For years I thought I traveled this world alone, only to realize yet again, that all isn't what I nor we think it is or will ever become! Life is stranger than we know and only its end will unravel its secretes - secretes which are dosed in bits of cryptic unconsciousness.

Choose a path! We are taught this idea from eyes open to eyes closed and either we grow to become good and noble or depraved and sad. I choose to believe I am good in heart, a beast of nature; passionate! But, which ever one you choose or allow yourself to become, just remember, your escape is only temporary, as you will no doubt revisit the now in the dreams of your next life.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

DOG DAYS

My days have been just what the title suggest; Dog Days! I mean we use terms like this to describe when things are not so good. I like to think of myself as being a strong person. I have strong ideas, opinions, offensives and defenses. For some, including myself that can be a bit of a problem.

I like to think that I know what I want. I've built my adult life on the foundation that being firm, strong, knowing would being success. Now, here is where the problem lies. I have this crust that is so thick that I'm finding it difficult to break! Meaning that my tactics aren't working... Yes, I'm made myself stronger, but at what cost!?

I keep carrying the same ole' dogged mentality with me everywhere I go and its nothing but destruction! Its so stupid... I have been both virus and cure for my ills, yet I keep reinfecting myself with the same shit over and over... I am my own DOG DAY! and its not over! I need my dog days to be over! I cannot keep being consumed by my own stupidity, lack of vision, and usually over reaching mouth!