WTF IS UP WITH AMERICAN'S????

Why do 'SOME' people think it is a good idea to "BURN THE QURAN" on 911? HOW MANY MORE MUSLIMS ARE WE GOING TO PUSH TO HATE AMERICA BY THIS GREAT INSULT?? Don't people know that America's freedom of speech only applies to AMERICANS!??? More importantly that other people around the world do not necessarily understand what our FREEDOM OF SPEECH IS!!!??? THESE IDIOTS! COME'ON - TALK TO ME PEOPLE??? FOR-REAL!

What It Means To Be Us!

I am and have always been by your side, even when the thickest of nights black hid the stars from our gaze. No mans triumph is with out wounds, no mans success is with out pain. Your journey has always been filled with tribulations for which you alone have challenged and over come.

It is the wisdom that you seek that keeps you aloft and it is the wisdom that you possess that many aspire to have. Life has been both teacher & Master, never simple, never crude, just our own manifestations that we bear!

Love!

The Morning I knew!

It was morning and I opened my eyes to your smile. The twitch of your lips made me smile and remember my luck. My warm hand caressed your brow down the side of your face – neck to chest. I rested my hand there feeling the pulse of your heart. I could feel a change in my own pulse as it sped up to match pace with your own. The sandy bits of pebble in that old ornate hourglass hanging above the bed seemed to move in reverse. For a moment we lived each other’s life! The morning was gone and the afternoon sun crept through the windows. We embraced each other with no words from our lips. It was in that moment I realized it had always been you!

Broken Promise!

I almost forgot what listening to an old song can do for you. It can bring back memories from your past, people that you were friends with, and even those that you may have loved. I can unmistakeably say that the song that I'm listening to now has done more than just invoke old memories. For a moment I was transported back to the mid-80's and the topic was all about Aaron James Williams.

How many times can you be in the presence of someone and feel their love and never express it! What were we afraid of? Aaron always protected me and sometimes from myself! He knew so much more than I did. He tried to teach me how to be a man without giving up who I was as a person. He compromised himself for me, but I was too young, too immature to understand.

I can honestly say that if there was ever a love, a moment, an anything that was never said you can believe me, it was Mr. Williams. Aaron was my Sauveur and he rescued me on more occasions than I needed to be saved. I know that he loved me in several different ways and I loved him too. He was the big brother and sometimes father that I so desperately needed.

I can see his smile and sometimes and I can picture what his eyes were like. I don't know what drive me crazy the most; the face that I can't remember his face or that I never told him how much he meant to me!? I imagine both are equally as bad, since its been many years since he died and I still cant stop crying when I think about him! I can't get your memory out of my head! I love you always! I promised I wouldn't leave you and I did!

I miss you Aaron. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you like you were for me! I hope you forgive me for abandoning you!

forever, your friend!

IS THIS TOO MUCH!

I know that we meet people, fall in love, and try to live happily-ever-after. In living this happy life, we as partners share a variety of things such as our love, emotions, food, time, finances, etc. But the question I ask, is there something... one little thing that you wouldn't share with your mate??? If so, what is it?

For me the sharing stops at my toothbrush!!! Yes, I said my toothbrush. You see, my boyfriend has a habit of using my toothbrush and thinks that it is ok! I mean, its not like we don't kiss deeply and or other things related to oral (WHATEVER)! But you get my point.

So why am I so freaked out about my mate using my toothbrush? In my mind, its off limits to his mouth! I think a toothbrush is personal like a retainer... can you imagine your guy using your retainer? that's just gross! LOL. Well, let me know what you think!

Coming Together - Learning A Lesson

You know, today I realized something that I had forgotten. I realized that I have someone that truly loves me for me. I realized that I should be more open, communicate more about things that really matters in my relationship and stop prejudging and trying to determine the outcome before the outcome has even come.

I need to stop pretending that I'm Ms. Cleo, and that my crystal-ball is all seeing and all powerful. Yes, I may have a bit of magic on my side but it doesn't give me card-blanch to make lofty assumptions. I will admit, I'm still a bit ticked that my special someone will not spill his guts about a certain conversation that he had with someone I know. But I guess I will have to man-up and move on!

Its good to know that being a bit older you can still learn now to handle things that come at you. Moreover, I'm happy to say that I am looking forward to seeing how things develop from here on out!

Interestingly enough, we picked up some words of advice from Tatsu 1 & Tatsu 2, a lovely Japanese couple that we met on our visit to the Empire State Building Yesterday. The advice is as follows - The only drama you will experience is the drama that you bring into your own home from outside forces. So, limit the outside worlds exposure to your inside world and let your relationship blossom... words of the wise!

I'm sure the Tatsu's had their share of issues. After all, they have been together for 13 years! ;) I wish them well as do I wish us!

COMPROMISE

Baby,

You are special and I love the things you do for me. I love the
trips that we take and the time we share together. I know
you love your time with me and that is awesome. But I can't help
but think that you want all my time! I do not necessarily think
that it is a bad thing, meaning you wanting to have all my time.

But keep in mind that if we are sharing a weekend get-a-way and
I have spent 99% of that time with you - It should be ok for me
to do something that I want to do. I really want you to understand
that it is not that I want to run off alone or even do crazy things.
I just want our timed get-a-ways to be fun for the both of us! This
does not mean that I didn't have fun this weekend! I enjoyed the
shopping, food, and most of all the Dolphin watching! It was great.

So, next get-a-way. I am not coming back to the house and sitting on
the sofa to play with my computer, when we could have been out either
me playing poker or us at the beach for a moon lite walk! because we
can (AS YOU WOULD SAY) do that at another time or at HOME! ;)

You have my hope, understand, and even my love!

Tony.